The rest of the story………

Grace is recovering fine from the excitement of last week and babysitting camp! She had her first official “job” yesterday for an hour with the neighbor’s little boy. She came home soaked from head to toe because they were playing in the swimming pool….

Anyway, catch the rest of the story today here on my bi-weekly article for Mamalode.

Hope you are all enjoying the nice summer weather.   I have been neglecting the ole’ blog for good reason….several gigs with the Blue Mountain Music Makers, weddings with the Black Tie Quartet, and a painting project in our house.    Don’t worry.  I’m keeping track of all the events and there is PLENTY to write about!!  Stay TUNED!

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LETTING GO OF A HAIRY SITUATION

I just got a haircut yesterday. Short. Really short. It was 90 degrees out, and I have been in need of a change, so I said “what the heck!”

I loaded up the kids in the van with the promise to let them browse the pet store while I was getting my hair cut.  I said if they stuck together and got along I would take them swimming after we left the mall.  They kept entertained for most of the time, but peeked into the shop toward the end. The look on my daughters face mimicked a bulldog…..her nose scrunched up between her brow.   They stayed outside the window peering in until the hairdresser was done.

As soon as I walked out of the shop, the comments started firing forth: “It’s SO SHORT! Mom, its crooked.    Oh mom, why did you do that?“   And the kicker?   “Mom, you look like grandma!”   Ouch.   From everything I have read I figured I had just shed ten years of aging with a new haircut, and now they were telling me I looked thirty-six years older?

I guess what it really comes down too, though, is that it hurt my feelings!   Talk about regression on my part.   I usually have a pretty thick skin when it comes to my kids bantering, but for some reason this really bothered me.    I think, perhaps, it is that I was a little attached to my mid-length hair myself.

Growing up, I didn’t have a choice.  My mom kept my hair cut SHORT because she had seven heads of hair to cut so she would line us up and clip away!   As an adult I grew my hair out and kept it  fairly long, aside from one year after my third child was born.  Being able to feel the locks against my neck have been my security blanket.   Putting it up in a loose bun, making pigtail braids during ski season, and twisting my hair with my fingers when I am nervous have been part of my identity as an adult.

It took no small decision to cut it off, but it was time.   I recognized throughout the day as I stewed in my own self pity of my kids insults that I felt a bit more free.    The sun warmed my bare neck without having to search for it beneath my locks.   I swam in the pool and enjoyed having less water weight when I got out.   I washed my hair later with just a dollop of shampoo and let it air dry without having to navigate through tangles or find the brush that is always missing from the bathroom thanks to my kids.

Hair.   I know.  It’s just hair.   But it was also a lesson in letting go of things that don’t really matter.   It also is a reminder that I can choose how my children’s comments affect me.   In the evening when my husband came home he immediately noticed.   I braced myself for another negative comment but I was pleasantly surprised when he liked it, and said thanks for making it more dramatic this time so he could actually NOTICE and comment on it!   He couldn’t have said anything better to me and continued pleasing me when he defended my decision as the barrage of comments came from the kids:  “Dad, did you see mom’s hair?” (Insert voice of sarcasm here.)   “Yes, isn’t it cute?”  Score one for the husband.

I learned a valuable lesson about letting go, and it feels good.   As for my kids?   Perhaps I’ll go get a tattoo and a nose ring.  Now THAT would really get them going, huh?

LIFE LESSON:  “If you look carefully you will see that there is one thing and only one thing that causes unhappiness. The name of that thing is attachment. What is an attachment? An emotional state of clinging caused by the belief that without some particular thing or some person you cannot be happy.”   Anthony de Mello

The summer has been quite wonderful so far with my kids.   See my latest article in Mamalode for the story of Montana Fiddle camp and loads of inspiration we came away with.  Plus a very rough recording of an original piece of music that came from my disappointment of the Gulf oil spill.   Feel free to leave comments.

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PEAK A WEEK: WELCOME CREEK TRAIL

This summer I am motivated to do a lot of hiking with my kids.   With my husband working almost daily and my schedule a little bit lighter I figured it would be an excellent way to share some quality time with my three children and the family dog.   We live in such a spectacular area, and there are several trails within a thirty mile radius of our house.    On some of the hikes we will reach a summit.  Others, we will not.  I found an awesome book to guide us to our destinations….I highly recommend it!

This will be my hiking bible for the summer!

Our first hike of the summer was Welcome Creek Trail.  The trailhead is approximately 14 miles up Rock Creek Rock, east of Missoula.

We had spectacular weather-FINALLY!   Warm enough, but not hot yet.   The contrast in colors due to the recent rains was remarkable.

The suspension bridge at the start of the hike.

Welcome creek was flowing high, and a perfect spot to rest.

The "chair" rock was enjoyed by the kids.

The trail meanders through thick forest, open spaces, and rocky cliffs to keep the kids entertained the whole way!

Cade navigates the narrow bridge while mom screams "use the handrail buddy!"

There were SO many painted ladies and other butterflies enjoying the day too!

All in all, our first peak a week trail was a great success.  Not too much fighting, and my only disappointment being that after reading more in the Day Hike book when we returned home, I realized we turned around probably 1/4 of a mile before an old cabin called the Cinnabar Cabin.  But Cade had had enough, and we can always go back later in the season!

Our Hike Lesson of the Week:    BRING MORE AQUA FOR THE KIDS AND DOG!

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PA SCHWA

I know I am late, but I want to take a minute to publicly thank my own dad, Richard Schwaller (otherwise known as Pa Schwa, or Grandpa Schwa, or GREAT Grandpa Schwa) for being an amazing force in my life. I can only hope to be as wonderful, witty, idealistic and loving as you when I am 83!

And, to all you dads out there, including my husband Mark, thank you for being so wonderful. Never underestimate your important role of this very difficult and rewarding task of raising good kids.

Some pictures from a spring day recently when Pa Schwa was visiting.

Grandpa Schwa

Dad, just like you helped me plant seeds in my garden, you have always helped me plant seeds in my mind. Those seeds have enabled me to grow into my dreams. Thank you and I love you!

Life Lesson:  Dad’s help us all see beauty.

As one grows older one should grow more expert at finding beauty
in unexpected places, in deserts and even in towns,
in ordinary human faces and among wild weeds.
-   C.C.Vyvyan

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TWEEN CHRONICLES: ENDLESS SUMMER

My kids could not contain their excitement when they got out of school a week earlier than some of their friends in town. They didn’t have a spring break this year so they had a jump start on summer vacation.

I picked the kids up on the last day. I met them in the breezeway out front. As soon as I spotted my daughter Grace I could tell she had plans. She enticed me like a well-trained auctioneer. “Mom, did you get my message? I want to go over to Alex’s house and Maddi is going too and oh we are going to a party first and did you talk to Heidi? And oh and she will take us over the Alex’s after the party and we will stay overnight.” Insert several other K-8 kids on last day of school sugar treats screaming and talking over Grace simultaneously.

Read the rest of the story here:

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Da Da Boom Shoo Bop……

Yesterday marked my last day of the year teaching with the CMPD (Center for Music by People with Disabilities) program at a local middle school. I have been fortunate to be a musician in the program for ten years now and look forward to many more, depending on continued grants to fund the program.


I am one of many musicians that rotate through the schools, and was the first one hired by my musical mentor and the program’s founder DKM. He chose to end the school year with the two of us.


Many of the children at this middle school we also taught in the elementary schools, so we have developed a solid relationship and trust with them.


Yesterday I brought my guitar and some drums, and DKM had his usual magic tricks and musical lessons. We invited the kids up to have a “solo.” I accompanied on guitar.   One girl, B, has consistently belted out tunes from “The Sound of Music” for the last year.  DKM challenged her yesterday, asking her to sing a NEW tune, even if it was “la la la.”

Her eyes looked at me- round moons of anxiety. I hadn’t seen that look since I first met her in third grade, when she was barely able to say her name let alone sing anything in front of a group.


One of her buddies in the class suggested a song she had sung in choir. Although still hesitant, a slight nod of her head indicated she would comply.

She slowly put her head down to her chest, confining her shy nature and adverting her eyes to build her confidence. B started singing softly, barely audible to me as I strained to find the pitch her voice was presenting. Then a slight crescendo developed  and I located her pitch.


DKM jumped on his flute, matching my chords. She sang “Da da boom shoo bop, da da boom shoo bop.” There was a faint hint of a familiar melody line she sang to my ears. B lifted her head slightly, and as her voice became louder I heard “Stand by me….” incorporated in with the “boom shoo bops” and a song was born.


As I recognized what she was singing, I increased my vocals to support her confidence. Her head lifted further, and a smile formed on her face. I went with her energy.  I stood up.  We started belting out “stand by me.”


The reaction that followed took me by surprise. One at a time, all ten students in the room slowly started joining in. Some of these students have barely talked this year in the times I have been there. Within minutes, students and teachers alike were all standing up belting out in forte “Baa da boom shoo bop” while we sang “stand by me.” Natural movement accompanied and soon everyone was rocking back and forth.


I got chills….the good kind. For five minutes we were stuck on a musical island, and I did not want the moment to end.  There are days when I wonder if the role I play can possibly make a difference. Then there are magical musical moments that provides me with the answer.   For B and the rest of the students and staff in that classroom, I hope that our moment together will remain etched permanently in their memory.  Because, just maybe, when we all feel a little uncertain of ourselves we can recognize that those are the times that we grow. Those moments, strung together, create joy. Those voices, joined together in common unity, create peace and love.

LIFE LESSON: Stand by Me. I will stand by You too..and together we can create a bit of harmony.

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FIRSTS

No matter what our age, no matter how mundane our life can be, there are always more firsts. Enjoy the following photos taken on the first day of June, 2010.

First blooming pansy in my flower pot

First veggies of the season coming up.

First bush bean to greet the sky

First Tibetan Prayer flag...a score from a garage sale for $4!

and finally………………….

First year of baseball for my youngest son!

LIFE LESSON:  Treat each moment of every day as if it were a first, and live each day as if it were your last.  js

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SKITS, SCAT, AND SOLITUDE

What a weekend!   Each year on Memorial Weekend my husband leaves town for an annual guys trip.   I hang with the three kids, and try to have some special time with them.   This year we were invited to spend the weekend with my brother and his family at a Forest Service cabin approximately nine miles from the Canadian Border, just past the tiny town of Polebridge, Mt.   I have never stayed at a Forest Service Cabin, but according to my sis-in-law this place was really nice compared to many of the ones she had stayed in previously.   The cabin used to be owned by the Wurtz family, and was gifted to the Forest Service and restored in 2006.   The history of the place is amazing, and depicts the hardships and joys of living off the land in days gone by.

We had an amazing time, even though the weather was far from amazing.   We hiked, played games, ate s’mores, watched the kids put on skits, and most memorable, witnessed a huge grizzly bear saunter through the property right in front of our face.   Words don’t do justice, and unfortunately the camera didn’t either, but here are some pictures from our weekend.   I hope you enjoy!

Rolling kids in the mud in Polebridge, Montana

Nephew Ben grows and his long arms during a skit.

Close encounter of the Grizzly kind!

The solitude of Wurtz Cabin.

I hope you all have a fantastic week.  When you have an extra second to spare, hop on over to   Mamalode for my latest Tween Chronicles piece:  From Dimples to Pimples!

http://www.mamalode.com/2010/06/tween-chronicles-from-dimples-to-pimples/

LIFE LESSON:

In the silence of the woods I listen to the wind

The night brings the patter of the rain on the old tin roof

The laugher I hear coming from children tucked into sleeping bags

as they tell stories brings a smile to my face in the dark.

Here, in this moment, I find myself fully aware, and immensely appreciative

Oh, these precious and fleeting moments

Piece together the best times in my life like an heirloom quilt

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TRY, TRI AGAIN

Life is like a Triathlon.

Last weekend I participated in a Sprint Triathlon:  500 M swim, 12.4 mile bike, and 5K run.    The event was the second that I have done in my life.  The first one was twenty-four years ago .  When I signed up for that one I was in the “spontaneous” time of my life, living in New England without much of a plan.   My training consisted of inconsistent bike rides, a few runs here and there, and not staying at parties as long as my other friends.   I didn’t “train” per say, or recognize the significance of the task I was about to try to complete.   My recollection. although a bit fuzzy, was that it was NOT real fun.   I struggled in the pool, never having any real form to apply and my only goal being to not drown.  The bike ride consisted of winding roads which I did on my mountain bike with thick tires.  I remember wanting to puke when I started running, but somehow managed to cross the finish line, and reward myself with a beer.

Fast forward to my forties.  An epiphany about what is “fun” started  in my mid-thirties, consisting of running, exercise, and challenging my body beyond it’s limits.   Call it a second chance, if you will.  My sister-in-law hatched an idea in my head last summer about doing a triathlon.   It was a great opportunity to expand my preference for long-distance running into swimming and biking,  since those activities are kinder on my knees.   I enjoyed the process of feeling more confident in the water, and getting out to ride my bike more often.

Our start time was not until 10:30am, since there were only six pool lanes.  We were excited to be in the same heat and sharing the same lane-although a little weary of making each other laugh in the pool.    We were assigned to the very last lane, and Mona was right against the side with the swimming pool lift.   As we started swimming I pulled a little bit in front of her, later to find out it was because I swam into her lane and she ran into the lift.  Here I thought I actually was FASTER than her!  We ended up finishing the ten laps together and ran out the carpeted run into the transition area.

The transition area is where you store your gear for the next leg of the race.  Before the race we racked our bikes, laid out our biking clothes and set a towel to stand on  when we came out of the pool . As organized as I thought we were I had trouble squeezing my wet body into my biking shorts.  As we took off from the gate I noticed I had forgotten to zip up my windbreaker so I wished Mona well and she was on her way.   The bike ride was scenic, winding around the Bitterroot River, up around several hills.  I tried to stay focused on the beautiful spring weather.  We had lucked out, as the forecast had called for rain/snow mix and high winds.  We had a few sprinkles, but Mother Nature came through for us.    6.2 miles out, and then back.    I kicked it in a gear when a few participants from the next heat passed me.  Even though I was going just against myself I still had a bit of a  competitive drive.

From the bike I entered the transition area again.   I threw off my windbreaker, helmet, and the wool socks I had thrown over my running shoes to keep my feet from freezing while I was biking.  I couldn’t find my running visor so I rummaged through my bag and found a winter hat, which I hastily threw on.  I was clumsy and tired but ready to run.    As I ran out the gate I felt  pretty good, but also heavy in the legs.  I was encouraged by a few well wishers telling me I looked strong.   Well, if I looked strong, I surely was strong, right?  It took about a mile to get my rhythm, then that familiar feeling of running came back.  I knew that feeling well-the rhythm of my breathing coordinating with the rhythm of my feet, which I have been practicing diligently for seven years now.  My familiar friend, my running-just a little bit slower than I was used to.

I made it through the 5k and managed to even pass someone on the last leg of the race.  My family and Mona were there cheering me on at the finish line, and I finished strong.    Unlike 24 years ago I felt powerful.  Vibrant.  Healthy even!    I came in at 1:39:30.   I was hoping to come in under two hours so I felt very proud.  Mona kicked it in at 1:29:57 and tackled her insecurities about the swim.

running in strong at the end

Life is like a Triathalon.   Sometimes we are swimming or sinking, pedaling hard or coasting, running wild or stepping slow.   Life makes us keenly aware, in the times of transition, that there is a clock ticking.  Transitions are not always easy, or smooth.   Life presents opportunities to practice those transitions over and over but no matter how we have our thoughts laid out or our gear in place  we may be missing essential tools and stumble.   The important thing is to learn from it,  keep going, be flexible, be sturdy.   Let your friends and family be your biggest cheerleaders, and draw strength from their insight.  Recognize it is okay to lean on them for support when you feel weary.  Learn to ask for what you need.

If I can do it, you can to.   I am so thankful I learned this little lesson twenty-four years after it was presented to me the first time.   And that, my friends, is why I tried the Tri again.

LIFE LESSON:   If at first you don’t learn the lesson, try, tri again.

Mo and Jen tasting success!

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CHOCK IT UP!

Okay, so I have been watching with interest in the last few years as the media (as ever so reliable you know) continues to talk about the benefits of dark chocolate.   I have continuously been trying to improve my health in all realms of my life, and once I make a commitment, I usually am pretty good at following through.  I also am pretty good at going overboard.   When I decided to start running five years ago it didn’t take me long to commit to the overzealous goal of running a marathon.  I have now run three  and am looking forward to my first triathlon in twenty-four years.

Same with eating chocolate it seems.   I decided on a whim the other day to buy some really expensive chocolate at the grocery store.   My justification was that I could bring it home to savor a tiny bite each day to fulfill my commitment for a life filled with health and wellness.  I LOVE chocolate.  But I have never really bought any really good chocolate in fear that, much like my running, I want the chocolate marathon, not the little sprint.

Day one was good.   I was good.   I ate healthy, got in a wonderful run, and then rewarded myself later with an ounce of that delicious dark chocolate bar.    Day two:  not so good.  Terrible, in fact.   I ate well that day, but around seven pm my chocolate alert button went on.   I carefully unwrapped the ounce.  It looked way too small.  So I took another square.  Then another.    Elaine’s voice from Seinfeld echoed in my head….”can you please spare a square?”   Even though this was not toilet paper, it seemed just as important in my chocolate crazed head.   Pretty soon the whole chocolate bar was gone.   I felt really satisfied, for about one minute.  Then I felt guilty, and then bloated.

The next morning I had a workout with my Physical Therapist, who has been helping strengthen my knee.   It was torture!  I felt like the velvety, smooth chocolate had literally melted into my butt and thighs, and doing squats was not pleasant.   Later that evening I felt a little more guilt, as I confessed to my husband that our precious chocolate stash had, indeed, been eaten by yours truly and not the already-been-proven-guilty children of the family (including the dog).

I have come to the realization that what works well for some people sometimes does not jive for me.   I have a sweet tooth for chocolate, and am missing that part of my brain that can eat just one square.    First, I know that I will NOT be able to keep big huge chocolate bars in the house.   Like many women, it is not that I lack willpower.   I have immense willpower for most things, just not when it comes to eating chocolate.   Secondly, I am an emotional eater.  Life, in it’s hardships,  is sometimes like the bitter chocolate bar…and I don’t like that kind!  When that happens I tend to use food as stress relief.  I need to work on putting other tools in place when I find myself spiraling down from stress.   Third, I need to find an alternative.  Today I found it…chocolate milk!!!  I LOVE chocolate milk, and find that I can get that sweet fix.   I also feel full after a glass, whereas little tiny pieces of chocolate are just NOT going to cut it for me!

What do you do to stave off emotional eating?   This chocolaholic would love to hear from YOU!

LIFE LESSON:   When life throws you bitter chocolate, make sweet chocolate milk and drink it up!

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